Dear Chris
Thank you for your reflections and for sharing those. Have you considered volunteering even a few hours a week to a cause outside of yourself? For helpers who are used to helping we can almost become dependent on the dopamine hit that reinforces our joy / passion for being of service. I read something the other day about being cautious not to become too self-serving, and that we have to keep making small sacrifices of our own comfort sometimes in order to contribute to the whole. It resonated with me particularly at a time when many of us (myself included) have spent more time at home than usual, it can almost perpetuate the self-serving that goes along with that. Just ideas and sending well wishes on your journey.